What a day...

Well after one of the longest workweeks ever, all I wanted to do was relax last night. Baby Boo & I were both sleeping by 9 pm. My boyfriend had tried to call me about...oh, four times after I fell asleep, none of which, woke me up. I woke up around 10:30ish and called him back and he said he was waiting in town for me. So he comes over, goes to sleep, I never got a kiss or anything! I was sooo disappointed. He gets up at 7 AM this morning and says he has to go work....hm...
I text him at 9:30 and he says that he is getting parts to fix my car. Interesting. Anyway, here I am with the whiniest baby EVER and no car.
I just broke down and cried a little while ago. Made me feel quite a bit better.

House Hunting...?

Nathan and I have decided that we are to the point in our relationship where we either need to take it to the next level (live together) or we need to call it quits. I want to live with him...but...the house he lives in now needs work. A LOT of work. And it's clear out in the booneys. So we got into a huge fight last night at like...midnight about whether to live in town or in the country.
Wow.
Anyway, I haven't got much else to say today.
Yup. I'm boring.
No one reads this, but it isn't for other people. It's for me. It just makes me feel better knowing I can say whatever I want, get whatever I want to get off my chest, and maybe someone will read it and be able to relate. If not, hey...that's cool. I like going back and looking at what I've written just because it's a great way to document your own life. If you want to see other things I've written then go to www.xanga.com/erinmaha05
If you read this...leave me a comment! It would probably make my day...possibly even my week. If I know people are reading this, I am more likely to write in it. haha. Probably almost everyday if people keep reading...and I'll write interesting stuff, not just this bullshit that I blog about just so I know what I was up to at a certain point in my life. I like to write, I just need an audience to feel the inspiration. :)
Have a lovely night!

An entire month!

I haven't blogged for an entire month! I guess that's because not much has happened lately. My boyfriend bought me a new queen-sized bed. Pretty excited about that. It was a good improvement from my twin bunk bed. When I moved here, my parents gave me half of the set of bunk beds my younger brother and I had when we were younger. It was not all that comfortable and this one is very nice. I got the bedding at Target, of course.

My new plan is to graduate in October, on my birthday to be exact. I'm pretty excited about that! It will be nice to be done with school.
I also got a medical transcription side job that I'm going to start here in a couple weeks. Hopefully I will like it because I can do it from home and any extra income would be helpful.
Other than that, baby boo keeps saying baby...and I have no clue why. I asked her babysitter and she said she doesnt know why she'd say it. haha.
I really have no exciting news but I'll try to post on here a little more often!

Worst Day Ever!!!

So, I'm driving along in my 20 year old vehicle the 30 mile trip to work this morning. I get about 10 miles into it, and BAM!!! my car dies. I manage to get my car on the side of the road....and call my boyfriend. He is 35 minutes away, but says he'll be there as soon as he can. I'm freezing by the time he gets there and then we try to pull my car with his truck and I just couldn't do it. I had an emotional breakdown. I had no babysitter (mine is being difficult...but that's another story...) so my dad was watching my daughter. My car is dunzo. And yeah, it's only Tuesday. Anyway, we finally get to my parent's house and my dad says I can use his truck for the day. So I got to work an hour and a half late, but they let me stay late so I wouldn't lose any hours.

Just when I decide the day might not be so bad after all, this big family of kids and their mom come thru my checklane. The little boy is crying and the mom doesn't seem to care or notice. Soon, the boy vomits all over in my lane. Wonderful. Just SUPER.

To top that all off, when I got home from work.. I was changing my daughter's diaper and poop got EVERYWHERE.

I just need to go to bed and pretend this day never happened.

I'm going to fail out of college.

I have entirely too much going on in my life.
Besides working full time at Target, I am taking FIVE online classes, one class on campus, trying to raise my daughter alone, trying to be a good mother, good daughter, sister, girlfriend to my boyfriend (who is not my baby's dad), try to keep up with my finances, keep my house picked up and organized....
anyway...I'm getting very bad grades. Not failing, YET...but horrible grades. It was to be expected with all this on my plate. I've never took on this much in my life before. I want to succeed. I want to be able to overcome this. For christ's sake I want to GRADUATE. IN MAY.
damnit.
I really need to pass all my classes....

Will I ever get ahead????

It seems my tax return is going to be $4100, which is EXCELLENT. But I need new work clothes, mine have absolutely HAD it.
And...my car is about to go kaput....and....I need it to help pay my bills since I'm defintely spending more than I make.
And I'm not even buying stuff that I don't need. I'm just doing what I have to do to get by since I am trying to raise my baby boo alone. Which, might I add, is just fine by me.
So, I am due to graduate college in May, which means I'll be making payments on my loans 6 months after that. Stellar. Will I ever get a different car? A house of my own? WILL I EVER GET AHEAD?

February, thus far.

Here are a list of my expenses in February so far:

Shell- 18.71, for gas.

Babysitter- 160

Water Bill- 42.70

Rent- 265

Applebee's- 15.00

Casey's- 20.03, Gas

Casey's- 20.72, Gas

Wal-Mart- 8.43, junk!!!

Target- 3.24, food.

Casey's- 15.90, gas

Target- 5.00, food

Target- 18.81, diapers & wipes

4-way stop- 19.76, gas

Casey's- 10.00

MidAmerican- 26.29, electricity

Drew's- 8.42, food

Shell- 20.58, gas

Target- 11.53, cupcake supplies (THAT DIDNT TURN OUT ANYWAY)

Target- 4. 32

Casey's- 12.00, gas

Target- 5. 84, lunch

Target- 3.94, teething tablets (LIVESAVER!)

Shell- 16. 58, gas

Babysitter- 177.50

Casey's- 15.00, gas

Amazon- 15.94, impulse buy....

HOW IN THE HELL DID I SPEND THIS MUCH MONEY IN HALF A MONTH???? HOW?

I've already spent 169.28 in gas. Holy Smokes!