I'm going to fail out of college.

I have entirely too much going on in my life.
Besides working full time at Target, I am taking FIVE online classes, one class on campus, trying to raise my daughter alone, trying to be a good mother, good daughter, sister, girlfriend to my boyfriend (who is not my baby's dad), try to keep up with my finances, keep my house picked up and organized....
anyway...I'm getting very bad grades. Not failing, YET...but horrible grades. It was to be expected with all this on my plate. I've never took on this much in my life before. I want to succeed. I want to be able to overcome this. For christ's sake I want to GRADUATE. IN MAY.
damnit.
I really need to pass all my classes....

Will I ever get ahead????

It seems my tax return is going to be $4100, which is EXCELLENT. But I need new work clothes, mine have absolutely HAD it.
And...my car is about to go kaput....and....I need it to help pay my bills since I'm defintely spending more than I make.
And I'm not even buying stuff that I don't need. I'm just doing what I have to do to get by since I am trying to raise my baby boo alone. Which, might I add, is just fine by me.
So, I am due to graduate college in May, which means I'll be making payments on my loans 6 months after that. Stellar. Will I ever get a different car? A house of my own? WILL I EVER GET AHEAD?

February, thus far.

Here are a list of my expenses in February so far:

Shell- 18.71, for gas.

Babysitter- 160

Water Bill- 42.70

Rent- 265

Applebee's- 15.00

Casey's- 20.03, Gas

Casey's- 20.72, Gas

Wal-Mart- 8.43, junk!!!

Target- 3.24, food.

Casey's- 15.90, gas

Target- 5.00, food

Target- 18.81, diapers & wipes

4-way stop- 19.76, gas

Casey's- 10.00

MidAmerican- 26.29, electricity

Drew's- 8.42, food

Shell- 20.58, gas

Target- 11.53, cupcake supplies (THAT DIDNT TURN OUT ANYWAY)

Target- 4. 32

Casey's- 12.00, gas

Target- 5. 84, lunch

Target- 3.94, teething tablets (LIVESAVER!)

Shell- 16. 58, gas

Babysitter- 177.50

Casey's- 15.00, gas

Amazon- 15.94, impulse buy....

HOW IN THE HELL DID I SPEND THIS MUCH MONEY IN HALF A MONTH???? HOW?

I've already spent 169.28 in gas. Holy Smokes!

Random

Today I made some cupcakes...not edible at all. I am not cut out for this mom thing because I can NOT cook to save my life.
I had even bought a new cupcake pan to make them in. So there goes some more of my hard-earned money down the drain.
And last night I was on Amazon.com and I just couldn't help myself so I ordered the book, How to LIVE on Minimum Wage. haha. Well it should be easy to relate to and hopefully give me some tips :)
Currently I am 40 dollars in the hole...
I am going to try and get on a budget here once I get my tax return back, cuz then I'll actually have money. I just don't even know where to begin. It just feels like my spending is out of control even though I don't buy much for myself usually.